his disease changes everything
i cannot express how much I hate her
she took you away from me
even though you are still here.
of course I understand
and empathize with your situation
but it is so hard to take
that all has changed forever.

everything has become heavier and overshadows everything
this sucks and makes me so frustrated.

i am in a conflict of feelings
between today and yesterday
between your bad and good days
i am in a conflict of feelings
between reality and past
between reason and heart

my memories are fading
more and more so that I have to
actively remember
how it used to be

you were always there
you were there for me
i miss you
and the way you were